Thursday 8 September 2011

Quicky

This is just a very quick update.... I didn't weigh in when i was meant to so i weighed in today, it has been 11 days since i weighed in so today i was pleasantly surprised.. i had lost 2.1kg!!! i am .9kg of my last short term goal!! which means i am down to the last 10kg and i will have reached my over all goal!!! i have also lost another inch in a week to YAY.
gunna go like i said just a quicky!! xoxo

Saturday 13 August 2011

Happy happy

So i have neglected this blog a bit but i have so good news so it is getting some attention LOL.
So i decided i would weigh in this morning instead of tomorrow as well week days now a a bit chaotic for me now a days. I am one happy girl in a week i lost 1 1/2kg which means i am 2 1/2kg off my short term goal!! I have also lost another since i am so freaking excited... i am starting to really notice a difference about time i say!!
I have been wearing pants i haven't worn for about 4 years and they are fitting fair enough i had a tinny little pudge but i am wearing them and looking good in them!! Feeling so so about myself this morning.
I really am finding my groove with all this i am not finding it hard at all to eat healthy it is just habit for me now.. i will have little bad things here and there but most of the time i don't even had dessert any more.. i know you are all gasping and amazed!!!
I think with work and walking with Peter almost every day it has helped me get off a bit extra this week!! I am gunna keep going and i will have lost the last 12 1/2kg i want to lose all up!! BOOOOOO YEAH BABY!!! Got tennis this arvo actually really excited about it haven't played in a while but ready to run around and abuse that ball!!
Gunna go have a amazing day peeps... Peace out xoxo

Sunday 7 August 2011

Craziness!

I know it has been forever since i write here but i have been flat out with trying to start work!
So i have lost another kilo 4 more to go till i meet my short term goal and this week i plan on going hardcore with it all even with work starting up!!!
Been going on the river walk with my stepdad which is awesome! but need to start doing more at home and such aswell!!!
Better go i will update better another time!!!
xoxo

Monday 18 July 2011

Busy busy

I know i haven't updated in a while been busy helping my sis move and hanging with the kids while school holidays were still going. BUT.... school went back today woohoo and to celebrate the freedom i went and did the river walk,I am rather proud i did it in 1 hour 8 mins and would like to cut back the time over a few weeks.
Last week was a bit of a bad week food wise and exercise wise :( but i still managed to lose 1kg and another inch WOOHOO. Must have been all the moving i did. This week back to the healthy eating and the exercising even though i am still a tad sore from the weekend but feeling good generally.
Seeing as it is meant to be raining the next week my exercising will be limited to inside but that is ok i still have plenty i can do inside and with Jack at school i can just do it when Lilly has her nap. YAY for naps i say hehehe.

This is just a short one got stuffs to do! i will update later in the week peace out homies!!!
xoxo

Sunday 10 July 2011

Something a bit different

Today's blog will be a bit different from what i normal write about.
Since the moment my baby girl left with her dad and Saturday morning i don't know why but i have just been complacent not sure why.. Hell even on Friday i was a bit like that. Life is so much different then i thought it would be this year,it gets me down from time to time but this is clearly what my life is meant to be right now,but it has be thinking a hell of a lot about where my life is going to take me in the future....I'm not worried but curious really. When something big happens in my life i always do something big to myself like cut my hair off,colour it a crazy colour,get a piercing or a tattoo... I haven't done anything, but i realised a few weeks back my big change is my losing the weight finally after almost 8 years! It sure is a slow process and the past few days the slowness of it has been getting to me..... I am being patient though i know i will get to my goal weight i need to hang in there on days like well the past few days.

With everything life has thrown at me the past 8 years i am proud of who i am and who i have the potential to be as a Mother,friend,sister,daughter and eventually teacher. But atm i really need to focus on me and the kids... me with the losing weight and getting healthy and the kids well getting Jack sorted with all his appointments i need to make for him and possibly another huge change but i am not going to say what till i know for sure. Lilly well she is growing up so fast and learning new things every day.. before i know it she will be off to school which makes me want to cry! My kids,my worlds are the reason i am who i am and they make me want to be better everyday! I would be lost without them, but i hate that Jack doesn't see Grant and doesn't know that side of him,as much as they have done wrong by him you should know who all your family are! And Lilly i love that Mick and his family are still so involved but i hate the way it effects Jack,he is a tough cookie my boy i wish life was a little kinder to him. Although he makes me proud every day with being such a happy amazing child even with everything that has been thrown his way. Yes we have our ups and a hell of a lot of downs but i wouldn't change him for anything he is my special mini man.

I know i need yo hang in there with everything.. Today is just one of those downer days... doesn't help i haven't had much sleep. I know i have a good life, i have wonderful friends and family and so much support with everything that i do. Just wish a few things were just a bit different but i guess life is what you make it! I really hope things start getting better and happier there has been too much sadness the first half of the year.. It is about time happy stuff started to happen i say!
Well i am going to go it is nap time for Lil pil!
Xoxo

Saturday 9 July 2011

1 week...

So i didn't lose the whole 2kg but i lost 1.5kg still a good effort but next week i am hoping to lose the full 2kg guess we will wait and see really.Feeling good still..... had a great session with Mick on Friday didn't do boxing did some other workouts which were pretty awesome.This week i will be having 2 sessions which YAY,well hoping one of the kids don,t have a mental like last week. Not really much to report atm all kinda quite... Just have 6 1/2kg to lose to reach my 2nd short term goal WOO!!!
I guess i will put down what i ate the past 2 days......
Friday
Brekky- 1 piece of toast
Lunch- Cheesymite scroll
Dinner- 2 wraps with chicken that was coasted in a bit of flour and paprika with a bit of cheese sauce over the top
also finished the small bit of chocolate cake... ooooppppss
Saturday
Brekky- 1 piece of toast
Lunch- a small ceasar salad
Diner- 3 sausages in bread
I am thinking no more cake type tings next week that was my down fall this week but when you have a craving you need to have it!! well peace out peeps!!!
xoxo

Wednesday 6 July 2011

whoopy doo

The past almost 24 hours i have had a small amount of chocolate cake and a choc chip muffin(the muffin i had to have thanks to scrubs plus had been feeling like one for a few days prior). I know that isn't too bad just feel a little down on myself now but i will keep going!
Last night i finally did my yoga DVD which i haven't done in months, i couldn't find any of my yoga stuff so i improvised and i was so glad i did it!! I could do some stuff at the "harder" level and i felt so good after the DVD finished. I forgot how much i like doing yoga so i will definitely be doing it more often. I think just the fact i can do more stuff and more of the stretches has shown me how far i have come. One of the moves i could almost put my shoulder blade on the ground which is what you want to get to that was like and very big WOOHOO moment for me. I am really getting into it all from the fact i can see the changes and the weight i am losing plus i am loving feeling so good! I can't wait till school goes back and i can start Zumba.. well that is if i am not working but doubt i will have classes at that time cause most child cares have lunch around that time so YAY. Still loving boxing and i hopefully next week will be able to have a my first second session a week with Mr Mick!!
This morning i did my usual weekly measuring and i have lost another inch in a week which WOOHOO. Just hoping by the end of the week i have lost another kilo which i think with the cake and muffin might not happen but i will see... i am planing on jumping on the treadmill tonight. I have done exercise everyday this week except for Monday night. Was going to go for a walk but this wind would be too much for Lil just sitting in the pram so that is why i am glad to have my tready hehehe.
So here is my eating for the past 2 days.....
Wendsday
Brekky - 2 small pieces of toast
Lunch- Soup with a piece of bread
Dinner- 2 satay marinated chicken legs and lettuce,sprinkle of cheese and a small amount of salad dressing
Small bit of chocolate cake
Thursday
Brekky- 2 pieces of toast
Lunch- Choc chip muffin(i know very bad lunch)
Dinner- 2 small rissols,mashed cauliflower with garlic and philly and some peas and corn

I know i have a habit of having Vegemite toast for brekky i just cant have anything else i love my toast!!!
Well gunna go being bugged for the puter.
xoxo

Tuesday 5 July 2011

Tuesday

Had a bit of a full on 2 days, Since yesterday arvo Lilly has been so clingy she has been screaming and crying... poor girl is either getting a tooth or is sick but if she isn't any better tomorrow morning off to the dr for her :( . With her being so off i had to cancel what would have been my first second session a week with Mick, but there is always next week my baby girl comes first. But with missing that once both kidlets were asleep tonight i jumped on the treadmill and jogged on it for about 25 min i didn't slow down and slowly made it a bit faster over time hehe the last few mins i made it supers fast and ran lol, that was fun i love having a treadmill at home i can wear my really daggy working out clothes.Was thinking if it isn't too windy and Lil is doing ok might go for a walk tomorrow. Been doing pretty good with cutting down with the carbs.... and after weighing myself today i have lost another kilo in about 4 days YAY!! Feeling really good about everything at the moment even with a few challenges!
So some big news i officially have a new job i sign the contract on Friday,i am looking forward to when it starts which will be the start of August. It wont be smooth sailing at first cause it is somewhat starting my own business but once it all starts happening it will get better! Also will help me keep fit and help lose weight so always a bonus!!
So here is what i have eaten the past 2 days.............
Monday
Brekky- 2 small pieces of Vegemite toast
Lunch- 4 corn thins with Vegemite
Dinner- Lean cuisine frozen lasagna
4 marshmallows hehe
Tuesday
Brekky- 2 small pieces of Vegemite toast
Lunch- Cup of lettuce,a really small bit of cooked chicken,a small sprinkle of light cheese and a drizzle of light salad dressing
Dinner- Honey mustard chicken with a cup of steamed veggies
A 99% fast free aero mousse(first chocolate thing in a week!!)
Well that is for me for today...... Peace out yo
xoxo

Sunday 3 July 2011

Sunday 3/7

So i have been thinking for the next month i am going to put here everyday or every 2 days what i have eaten for the day or the 2 days.....

Lets go..... Today
Brekkie- i have a piece of toast with Vegemite and 2 scones with honey
Lunch- 2 corn thins and a small hand full of sour cream and chive grain waves (i know bad lunch)
Dinner- 2 small herb and garlic rissoles and a huge pile of steamed veggies which consisted of Broccoli, cauliflower,green bean(ewwww),red capsicum and carrot and i added a small amount of corn!
I think i will have 4 marshmallows later maybe not i will see!!!

Peace out peeps
xoxo

Saturday 2 July 2011

Lately

Most of last week i was sick so didn't work out i spent most of it in bed and not eating a hell of a lot. I was going to cancel my boxing session but i decided to go a head with it and i am glad i did! I felt so much better after it think working out that hard help get the last of it out of my system thank god! So after i the session Micka and I were talking saying i had reached my first short term goal so i set myself a new one which it to lose another 7-8kg in the next 2 months.... but with talking i am going to try and lose that in a month! It is gunna be tough buy i know i can do it and if i don't lose the whole lot in that time then there you go i will just keep going! I am going to try and eat less carbs so if anyone has any ideas of alternative things to put with dinner or lunch i am open for suggestions! I am so motivated it isn't funny!
I didn't do any exercise yesterday but today the kids,Mick and I went for a walk to the shops and back that is about 4 1/2km and very hilly lol,feeling exhausted but good after it though. Tomorrow think i might give my yoga dvd a go haven't done it in a long time might jump on the treadmill too! See how we go.Must admit i am loving the weather makes you wanna get outside and do stuff. Hoping the weather stays like this for all the holidays,means i can take Jack to the park to play and we can kick a ball around and such.

Ok so if anyone has any food ideas or recipes for me let me know i greatly appreciate it. Going to go play with the kidlets!
xoxo

Sunday 26 June 2011

Here it is folks!

So since my first blog on the 27th April till today i have lost 3 inch which is about 8cm.I am also under the weight i was after i had Lilly(which i think since i started the blog is about 3kg) which was my sort time goal to get to the weight i was after i had her but 1kg under is even better!! Friday was a great day went to look for a new pair of jeans.. first pair i tried on fit (hasn't happened in a long time) the i went to Jay Jays and tried on a smaller pair then i would normally try and they fit nicely i jumped up and down a bit LOL. I got the first pair i tried on cause they were cheaper i will spend a bit more once i am to the weight i want to be at. With buying the jeans and just looking in the mirror i have noticed some weight loss, which makes me so proud of myself! I still have a long way to go but i know with in myself i will get this time.I have set another short term goal for myself and hoping i can get there in the next 2 months it is very doable and realistic. If i keep doing what i am doing and pick up the exercise(which i have been doing) i will be there by the end of the year!Next school term i will be starting up doing Zumba on a Tuesday at midday in Cranebrook with one of my mum friends from the school so that is gunna be awesome.Still going strong wit the boxing sessions but i think going to have to up the work out a bit more was barely sore on the Sat morning so it is time to step it up i thinks! Loving it still though, it is just so much fun and the fact you are burning calories is a bonus!!!
I think the thing i am most prod about is the fact other then boxing so far i have been doing this on my own... No gyms,not personal trainers(again other then boxing and that is recent),no weight watchers or anything along those lines. I said i wanted to do this myself and i am,well clearly to and extent! I am feeling great and starting to see myself as looking great. I am so much fitter then i have been in a long time and i am even thinking of doing the river walk this week and see how i go with that!
Must say last week was  a bit of a stressful week just with the kids but i didn't go buy chocolate or anything i powered through and got on with it. I only walked and did boxing last week but this week hoping to have boxing,river walk and maybe some yoga at home or something i will figure it out but i am so motivated to get this happening faster. If anyone ever wants to go for a walk or anything let me know i will generally be up for it.
Gunna head off dinner to cook!
xoxo

Monday 20 June 2011

Update time

I know i haven't blogged for a while...Honestly haven't been motivated enough to after the week i had.
So i had a bit of a rough week thanks to some bills and lack of money so i was down and out for a few days which means no exercise and some milky ways got the better of me lol. But come Friday i was back to my chipper self and got stuck back into it. Friday arvo i had another fantastic boxing session with the awesome Mick!! and then Sat i jumped on the treadmill for about 15mins(i know not long but didn't want to over to id and make myself even more sore). Sunday didn't do anything but today i happily walked to pick Jack up from school,although walking back Jack make it a pain in the ass!
Starting to feel really good and energetic again which i LOVE, eating small portions again and i am so eager to get past the weight i was after i had Lil which is not far off so if i keep going i will be there in a week or 2 which YAY.Find it so much easier to just pick up if i slip but i guess if i never slipped with the stress i would have thrown in the towel by now. I know i can do this and i am doing and i just need to keep telling myself it will happen slowly but i guess good thing come to those who wait.. and for this i am so willing to wait and just see once i get to where i want to be!
Things atm are so all over the place with bills and money,friend and family but even with the bad it is all good and i am getting through and getting stronger and more confidence everyday. I love that i have so much support it is a wonderful feeling I am so lucky to have the friends and family i do i would be lost with out every single one of them. I have recently been hanging out and getting to know a friend of mine even more and he is a wonderful guy, I feel lucky i get to know him a bit better. Also after what feels like forever i got to see Tammie and Markiss today was so good seeing them finally!
I love all of you more then words could say i am such a lucky gal!!! As you can all tell i am feeling very lovey tonight LOL.
Well i am gunna go and watch the rest of Beauty and the Beast.. Ahhh if only life could be like a Disney move!!!
xoxo

Friday 10 June 2011

Today i found something new

Today was a good day.... Feeling a bit sore but good! A wonderful friend of mine Mick is a personal trainer and he was wonderful enough to offer me a half hour boxing session and today was the day it happened. Was really good had a bit of a rocky middle after warming up i got over heated and felt rather unwell but a 5 mins sit down i got back up and we continued! It was so much fun and i loved learning something new.I can see me really getting into it the more i do it... Which i will be doing!! I am so grateful i got the opportunity to give it a try and i had such a wonderful and supportive teacher through it all. It has definitely kicked starts my exercising again though which YAY. Not sure if i will get much of a chance to do much tomorrow but Sunday for sure think me and jack might go for a walk to start our day.
I am in for a very big weekend and trying not over eat and not have to much junk is going to be a challenge and a half but even if i do it is not the end of the world i will just pick back up the next day and just make sure i exercise for a bit longer the next day. I am actually amazed at how busy my weekend is going to be but i know it will be an awesome 3 days!
I have been having a few marshmallows for 'dessert' and those things are evil... they are so very tasty and one good thing is they are fat free don't feel as bad if i eat one to many LOL. I love that i am no longer craving chocolate or baked goods.. they still rock my world but i can have them in small doses and not that often! I am really hoping in the next month i can maybe get a smaller size pair of pants and they will fit ok... it will be hard but sooooo worth it! Clearly you will all know how i go,well the ones who read this :D
Well am offski to watch a bit more Smallville then bed busy few days ahead. Stay safe everyone. Love you all
xoxo

Thursday 9 June 2011

Digging my heels in

Today i have done ok....I haven't eaten to much or anything bad. Although i wanted to so badly get a heap of freshly made still warm donuts today while i was out they smelt so good but i just kept walking!
I am thinking i need to get someone to take some photos of me now.... so once i have lost the weight and toned stuff(well as much as i can) i can see the difference. I know i will hate the photo of now but i think seeing it will make me work that much harder. Plus i would like to see the huge change i will have gone through doing this for myself. I even decided that once the weight is off i am going to rustle up enough money to go and get glamour shots done of myself.. i have never done anything like it but i have always wanted to. Only thing stopping me was my weight so once it is off i will get those photos as a kind of reward for myself for doing such a huge thing. 
I know some people don't see it as a huge thing but for me chocolate and baked goods are my addiction,it's my thing so getting past having huge amounts everyday is a massive thing to over come. Also getting this weight off has always been a challenge i have had this weight since i was pregnant with Jack and because i was in a loving relationship i didn't see how big was till months after we broke up cause as you do,you see yourself through their eyes and once that wore off i cried for days at how big i was. Mind you from then till now i am about 15-20kg lighter then i was but still i would like to be even less i want to be healthy and for my son not to tell me how big my belly is and give it a few years and if i am still big Lilly will be saying it. I still have a pair of size 12 jeans i will one day fit back into lol i love these jeans i will never part with them so i may as well lose the weight and wear them to death LOL.
Speaking of jeans i went to K-mart to get myself a new pair of jeans as the ones i have are getting rather lose and i don't have a belt that fits atm (it just doesn't fit) so i thought it is $20 for a new pair stuff it will get some... i got to try them on and all there sizes have changed! I mean WTF???? K-mart always had realistic sizes and i loved it... Cheap clothes that are comfy you cant go wrong but now ti has all changed i was devastated and i refuse to buy a pair of pants that say one size when i know i shouldn't be buying that big size :( i will keep on wearing these jeans and just keep pulling them up till i see a bit more of a loss with my waist and then i will go on a jeans hunt somewhere else!
Well i am gunna go do my scarey mum thing cause jack wont sleep.....
xoxo

Wednesday 8 June 2011

Battle time

I have been really struggling the past few days i have been dealing with a lot someone of it I won't go into it cause it is personal but some stuff i will say. My kids god love them but lately have been pushing my buttons big time :( . Jack i must say is getting better one of this biggest problems has been sleep but i am trying something new and it seems to be working rather well which YAYAYAYAY. As for Lilly i think little miss is getting a new tooth and isn't sleeping the best so put those together and well all i hear is winging *pull hair out* I get this year has been such a change for us all and yes we are still adapting to life and things will be hard for a bit longer. I am just trying to get through the best i know how. It sounds horrible but i am not used to the sooking... I don't do well with sooking so it has been really hard with Lilly of late,We will play and i will try and snuggle and lots more but if she is going to sook oh boy will she!
From all of this i finally had a night to myself on Sat night which was wonderful i had some drinks,nice dinner and something a bit naughty.... that was fine then i had something naughty the next night and then Tuesday night.... the past few days i haven't been able to stop eating and from this i managed to put on an inch and i am guessing the 1kg i lost just last week :( . I have had my days of giving in but as of tomorrow my will power kicks back in and i will lose what i put on and hopefully more. I really need to get stuck into the exercise as well. I know how good i feel but it is just doing it. I am hoping tomorrow afternoon i can jump on the treadmill it is just me and Jack then.
I know i can do this i have been doing it but i think I need a bit more of a boost and get these kilos off a bit faster. Past few days i have been feeling so fat and chunky i hate it even though some of my pants are still lose on me :S . I have even started taking some vitamins because i know i am lacking some things and i know they are good for you. Plus i am hoping it will help give me a bit more energy cause i really need some more,wish i could bottle up some of Jack's LOL.
I know there are people out there having a much harder time then me and i am grateful for what i have i am just having a bump in the road at the moment but i am making myself get past it move on and make things better for myself.
Going to go maybe get some sleep
xoxo

Friday 3 June 2011

So....

I know it has been a while since i blogged.... Bee some what busy and just haven't had the motivation to type a lot.The past few weeks have been interesting and stressful but i have hung in there and not eaten a heap of junk food! Although i haven't really been exercising that much but i am trying to do it a bit more. I have been sticking to the small portions which i am finding rather easy now a days YAY.
I have been keeping up with the measuring and i weighed myself this morning and........... I have lost another 2 inches and i have lost 1kg,i know 1kg isn't a lot but 2 inches in just under 2 weeks is awesome!! I am starting to notice a bit of a difference but i know it isn't drastic but one day it will be and i am going to love it!I am happy though i also have another pair of pants i can wear now cause they fit me... well they are a little bit lose but nothing a belt cant fix!
A few weekends ago i some what cleaned out my garage and found all these clothes i have been searching for for ages,i am feeling better about having some warmer clothes and the more weight i lose the more options of clothes i have which i am really loving. I know i still have a lot to lose and a lot more will power and hard times but just knowing i can do this is making it that little bit easier even when things are not great. Also helps i have been keeping myself busy with making things which i am loving... Feels great to see something you have made from scratch!!!
I went for a job interview today,not quite sure how i went but i am hoping if i get this job it will be the start of better things to come,i think it is time my year does a 180 and starts getting good again. Although the weight lose is helping with that but if i got a job means i will have some extra money to help get me back in front,i will be getting out of the house a lot more and i will have a break from miss Lilly as much as i love her i think she needs to be away from me a bit more she is rather clingy and needy atm. If i don't get the job though such is life i will just keep looking! I am sure something will come up eventually hehehe.
Well gunna go for now, i will try and update more frequently!!!
xoxo

Wednesday 18 May 2011

Today....

Well today was over all a good day cant really complain about it but i feel like i have had the worst day(nothing against you Tammie i love you and Markiss) I have no idea why i am feeling like this. Even woke up in a mood still didn't help with some messages i had.Most of my day was spent with a great friend and the kids played and had a great time as did i chatting to another adult LOL,after i left there i went and applied for a job and i was given an application form but it was like 23 questions long and a lot of them you had to answer with a short description... Well did that throw me BIG time. Don't get me wrong i sat down and did it but it has been over 8 years since i applied for a job and not knowing that i have to do all this writing and stuff was just like a big slap in the face i had no idea what to write for most.Took me almost half an hour and i haded it back.. not sure i will hear anything but hey i tried... also i applied online for another job,not holding my breath. So like i said i didn't have a crap day just in the mood like i did.
I have been feeling tired from the moment i got home from picking jack up this afternoon and all i have wanted to do was lay down and have a nap but i talked myself out of it(plus Lil was taking forever to go to sleep) so i sat and did some stuff on the net and watch from Raising Hope,all i had going through my head was go get some of jack easter egg chocolate and much away... Well i stopped myself i had a tiny little Andes mint chocolate and went and jumped on the treadmill for about 15-20 mins.... even writing this now i still really want chocolate,it is this mood i always like to comfort eat and i am holding back so much it is making my mood worse but i just wanna try and power through today and hope tomorrow is a better day! Thinking i might have a muffin after dinner if i am still dieing for some chocolate.
I realised today that i have some really supportive friends.. well majority are but just those ones that help boost your ego that bit more or make you feel like you could be/are some special.. I dunno just lately like i said in my last blog things have kinda hit me and i really don't have much self esteem or faith in myself and i really do need to find some or life will get a bit harder specially with looking for a job.I dunno i always try to please everyone and make them happy and be there when needed but i guess i dont really focus on me much now a days.... I know i am trying to lose weight and get healthy and yes it is totally for me but the past week it has been hard to do anything to do with that i am pushing myself through and hope that i will snap out of this but i don't really think i am very interesting or pretty.(no this isnt one of those times where a person is looking for people to go but you are pretty,i am simply saying this is how i feel/see myself). I need to find my confidence in myself and now i can do this and anything else i put my mind too. The past few months i am been hearing people say things to me that are wonderful and i love them for that but i am just not seeing it.... I guess i will in time just need to really work on me some more not just getting healthy and losing weight.But i am sure i will get through and hopefully soon.
Ok wow LONG post... well better run anyways i hear my baby girl awake
Until next time xoxo

Sunday 15 May 2011

Long time

I know i haven't blogged for over a week,but i have 2 sick kids plus i haven't been feeling the best and then a busy/painful weekend.
Last week wasn't the best week.. i didn't gain weight but i didn't put any on i had a bit of bad food last week....Still trying to eat smaller meals and have little snacks but i really need to step up with the exercise.I know i will get there and it is a bit hard atm i think i have an ear infection and last week the past few months is finally catching up on me.
I think with everything catching up on me it is making it harder to not hoe into the bad food just trying to deal with being on my own,and grand father dieing.I knew it would catch up to me but now it has life is a little bit harder but i will get through this and i will stay strong and do this! Just need to keep telling myself why i am doing this.
So far this week it is going ok,had something small today but i am gunna try and get myself on the treadmill tonight and my aim is to get on it every day from now on.Not sure how i will go with having the blocked ear throws your balance off LOL.

If anyone has some low fat desert ideas that isn't yogurt let me know it is my killer!!!

Thursday 5 May 2011

Friday!!!

I am so proud i lost an inch in a week!!! It has just motivated me even more,I have even noticed i have lost a little bit.Still feeling great even though i am so tired but been dealing with a sick/teething baby but its all good i am sticking to eating healthy although today i haven't had as much as i normally would i have a bit of a sore throat but i am going to make sure i don't eat too much for dinner seeing as i am having road done in the slow cooker WOOHOO. I have noticed that eating healthier even after a week is becoming so much easier and portion sizes are starting to not baffle me as much. Just after this week i know i can keep doing this and i am starting to find myself a little bit more as i slowly get some confidence back that i can actually do what i put my mind to and get the results i want.

Just a short post for now.
xoxo

Tuesday 3 May 2011

Humpday *giggle*

I am sooo buggered right now but i feel fantastic!!Yesterday i did 20 mins on the treadmill and my 6 stomach workouts only did bare minimum with them but my god could i feel it working!Today i did 30mins and my 6 stomach workouts i did a few extra... hoping a a week or so i can do as much a few times all together but will see how i go! I found out a great movie to watch while on the treadmill is hairspray lots of boppy songs helps get your mojo going LOL. My eating is getting better i am starting to get better at giving myself much smaller portions and well frozen meals come in handy too. But i have decided that Mothers Day i will eat what i want when i want cause well it is my day i shouldn't have to hold back!! I will just work it off on Monday.

Tomorrow will be 1 week since i started all this i am very curious to see how much i lost in a week but i know i will be happy with anything even if it is a little bit cause i feel great!!A little tired but doesn't help i have been having late night,gunna try have an early one tonight! I am so glad i have started this yes it can be hard and will keep being hard but i am loving feeling like this and before i know it i will have lost a heap of weight and hoping the kids will have to keep up with me.

Well gunna go can hear the microwave screaming at me cause my lunch is ready. Check in tomorrow for my loss. xoxo

Monday 2 May 2011

Been a few days.....

So i haven't written anything for a few days been busy and such.
Sounds silly but i have given up the eating plan i was on BUT i am still eating healthy just on my own terms and i start working out tomorrow!! I knew if i stuck to what i was doing i would fail and well that is the last thing i want,so i am taking this into my own hands and i know i can do this!!
I am already feeling better and i know once i start working out and exercising i will feel even better! I just did my search on YouTube for some great stomach work outs and i am going to go get my treadmill out of the garage and set it up tomorrow. I am so driven to do this more so then ever... However i am currently telling myself i don't want any chocolate i am fine without LOL. But go me i haven't touched it!!!
I had a few "bad" things at the baby shower yesterday but compared to what i normally would have eaten i am so proud of myself! I know i need to work a bit more on portions dinner seems to be my worst time i need to have a small snack between lunch and dinner and it wont be as bad. I have a few things that would be good snacks so i will tomorrow.

Other then moment like right now i am actually finding this easier then normal.. i think i am so driven to do this i wont let anything get in my way!! By the end of the year i plan to be buying all new summer clothes.Mind you these moments are hard not to just dive into all the kids chocolate but i am finding i do have will power and i will use it LOL.
I am excited to start my new work outs and stuff tomorrow i know it will be a bit full on and painful for a little while but once that bit is over it will become easy and i will start to see results!Which will make it all worth while and seeing the difference i can make for myself.

Well that is it for now,i will update tomorrow night with how my first day of working out goes lol

Peace out xoxo

Wednesday 27 April 2011

Day 1

So today is the start of so many changes! I have started this new eating plan a friend gave to me and the basics of it is there is 5 stages and they last 4 days.... I clearly have started the first one and it is really basic can't even have any meat so the next 4 days will be a little hard but i know i will power through. I am doing this for so many reasons the biggest being i want to start eating so much better and small portions of everything and closely followed by i want to lose a heap of weight all weight i gained 8 years ago when i was pregnant with jack. I know i have a tough road ahead of me but i am so determine to do this i want my kids to be proud of me and look at me for examples specially when it comes to food!Mind you jack eats my dairy and fruit then me but doesn't really eat many veggies or meat. I would like Lilly to grow up seeing that mummy eats really well and can do anything i put my mind to.

So my ultimate goal is to east my fruit and veggies,smaller portions and lose around 20kg all by the end of the year which i know is doable specially if i stick to this. I am going to stick to my eating plan for a few months and then see where i am at and then maybe start back on food i would normally eat but modify a few things to it.For these first 4 days i am not really going to push the exercise but once i start my new lot of food i will start.. if it is raining and i cant walk to pick Jack up i will do some yoga(or if i can set up my treadmill if i find a spot for it).

I haven't weighed myself as yet but i did take measurements of my waist and i will measure a few other things tomorrow morning when i have the time.But i will only weight myself every month and measure every week... i know some weeks a lot will come off and other weeks not so much but even if it is a small amount i know it is something and just one step closer.

I have no idea if anyone will even read this but i guess i am doing it for me so i can say how i am feeling and so forth and if people want to follow my journey then YAY for them!!!

Well gunna go need to get ready to pick jack up from school soon!!

xoxo